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10.28.2005

that's what Christmas is all about, Charlie Brown

i love simple things and children. i love the voices of children (especially linus’s) and their smiles, even their little alligator tears. i love their little coats and shoes and the way they run and live without any inhibitions. sometimes i wonder if i being a preschool teacher is maybe what i am supposed to do with my life—as in:

“whaddya wanna do with your life, young woman?”
“i want to be a preschool teacher.”
“well you’ll have plenty of time to be a preschool teacher when you’re livin in a van down by the river!”

anyway, back to the topic at hand.
i love simple things.
i love children.

and i LOVE charlie brown and his friends (and enemies, too, i suppose--although lucy, a friend/enemy, has always gotten on my nerves).

this is really all i know to say, i suppose.

and why, oh WHY is this on my mind? well, yes, that’s right—i really am listening to A Charlie Brown Christmas right now. A few select tunes have actually been on repeat all day.


p.s. i'm going to Finland, Lord willing. i was chosen to be a team member for Rotary's Group Study Exchange. :)

10.17.2005

a little update and miscellaneous thoughts

well, doug survived his first bh test.
day one was killer, but he nailed day two.

finland--the interview is this saturday.
i'm glad i'm going forward with this.
if i am chosen for the team, you will each have to pinch me a couple of times upon realizing i will be going to FINLAND for a month next year.
for free.

i haven't even tried to get another job since i was fired.
for now, i'm really enjoying being at home each night--doing laundry, cleaning, organising...whatever i want/need to do!!

i'm pretty sure we can manage without me getting another job, but having the extra $ would be nice. getting out of the basement would be nice. although, we ARE supposed to only pray for our DAILY bread. does anyone know of an example in the Bible where we are taught to save $? i'm really just trying to figure out some things. i know we are to be good stewards, but...does that necessarily mean saving? i mean, in every story i can think of re: goods or money, the "saver" is condemned. for example, when the israelites took more manna than they were supposed to (more than one day's worth), the manna spoiled. it rotted. and of course, the man who saved all his stuff in his barn died that very night...etc., etc. just something i've been thinking about lately. any thoughts?

in total contrast, is anyone else obsessed with the monopoly game at mcdonald's. i know, disgusting. i'm embarrassed to admit it, but alas, it is true.

did you know sean michel and jay newman are in africa with matt elkins right now? well, they are. sean even got to play and sing about Him in front of 1000s with one of the most popular bands there.

i have a pampered chef show on the 29th. it's called chocolate, chocolate, chocolate. :)

well, that's all. i'm thankful for you, dear friends and readers.

10.12.2005

baptist heritage

poor, poor doug--

at this moment, he is taking the first part of his first baptist heritage exam. (today is day one; friday is day two.)

for those who may not know what this is like, imagine having to memorize 600 "facts" (facts being anything from a place to a date to a name...you get the picture) and then being tested on only 200 of those--a die is rolled at the beginning of class to determine which pre-known (essay) question the students will have to answer for that day. in other words, there are 6 exam questions you have to know upways, downways, sideways and l;ajdsfl;k...on day one, you answer one of them; day two, you answer another one.

sadly, i did not retain hardly any of the facts i memorized when i took bh so many years ago. after all, i really only shoved that info into my short-term memory, i suppose.

knowing, doug, he'll do great. he's wonderful with essays, and he's oh so smart. but i feel for him--so deeply--nonetheless.

thanks for thinking of him. send him a little note of encouragement, if you would like. :)

10.11.2005

a favourite

it’s all about You, Jesus,
and all this is for You--for Your glory and Your fame.

it’s not about me, as if you should do things my way.
You alone are God, and I surrender to your ways.

Jesus, lover of my soul, all consuming fire is in Your gaze.
Jesus, I want You to know I will follow You all my days.

for no one else in history is like You; history itself belongs to You.

Alpha and Omega, You have loved me,
and I will share eternity with You.


if you do not know this song, i highly encourage you to listen to it. soon.
it's by shelley nirider, i believe. exactly 3 years and 5 months ago today, actually, my five beautiful bridesmaids sang this together at our wedding. :) if i could, i would post a link so you could hear them! (they were MUCH better than the scary accompaniment that backed them--wow. so much for a "pleasant" string quartet!!) :)

well, that's all.
i have been singing this song to myself today and decided to share the lyrics with you. :)

10.10.2005

wandg

i'm about to pass OUT because i can hardly wait to see the wallace and gromit film.

my sister has already seen it; i'm so jealous.

10.05.2005

this and that

so, a few things:

1) a few weeks ago, i was asked in an e-mail from my secret model, "would you like to go on a paid trip to Finland in May for 4 weeks?" even though the trip is through the rotary club and i would have to do presentations and go to meetings and such, this offer is too good to be true and too good to not pursue. so i'm in the process of getting permission from my boss, applying, setting up an interview, etc. can you even believe it, because i can't.

2) today after lunch in the cafeteria with doug, he told me johnny wink had scribbled in latin, "this window was stolen" on the inside wall of the former pretty room. i had to see it (even though, of course--and sadly, i would not have been able to understand it), so we walked into lile hall (NOT by the steps that used to lead up to the building on the "english" side, because those are now non-existent) and tromped down to the room, and when we were still about 5-10 yards away, i stopped in my tracks a tear began to form. what used to be probably the most beautiful room on campus has now been reduced to an ugly shoebox of a room: the powers that be have put sheetrock over the windows that made the pretty room the pretty room. and it's gone. all for the sake of progress or some other shit like that. sorry, but it's true. i know the school of business persons (and those associated with them) are happy, but i am not sure many others are. i bet the middle of campus has diminished by a third because of the HUGE building that's going up before our disbelieving eyes. myles, john, julie and kevin, i write this especially for you. and if you didn't know, i'm sorry to be the bearer of such horrible news. i cried tears for all of us today.

3) on a lighter and much more superficial note, i got a haircut last night. i have, for the first time in probably around 14 years, bangs. "fringes," as aussies might say. :) and yes, though they may be down to my chin (they're long bangs), that's still a huge change for me. i'm kind of liking them, but we'll see. :)

10.01.2005

you're fired

i got fired from the restaurant.

no, i'm not kidding.

it was (and still is) a nightmare.

FIRED.

i never, never thought i would experience such a thing--hubris, i suppose.
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anyway--as promised, here's what happened...
(i'll tell you the short version, because there's no way i can imitate their voices over the blogging world. you would definitely need to hear the accents, etc. if i gave you the long version.)

the servers at due aMESSe's (it's really due amiche's) are required to give the hostess/bus-girl 5% of their tips every night. now, i really love gabby--i do. i didn't mind SO much about the $ because i care for her and because really, five percent is not a lot. i've always seen every single server give closer to 10% (or more) of their tips, probably for the same reason i have-- i mean, who is really going to pitch in three QUARTERS out of their $15.00? we've almost always felt inclined to give a couple dollars each. besides, if we don't, we get berailed by alex...which brings me to friday night...

he came at us with gabby's $ (the $ we had just given her) in his hand. he was, of course, yelling at us--saying we hadn't given enough $. there were five of us, and we had given $10 total. well, figuring that each of us made around $25, the amount we SHOULD have given was more like $6--not 10. perhaps the right thing would have been to fork over more of our money...but we have never thought it fair that they require us to give her some of our "hard-earned" money when she's making minimum wage and we're only making $2.15/hr. [everything's always been so shady there--from the hand-written "personal" checks to the illegal aliens working there, one of whom used to hit us up for part of our tips, as well. every aspect of that place, really, is at least somewhat corrupt.] so once again, i step up as the unofficial server spokesperson...i told alex what i just told you--that we always give more than the required 5%--and usually we give closer to 10%. then he started yelling at me personally (yes, in front of everyone) asking me how much $ i had given gabby on tuesday night when i did so well in tips (yelling out specific amounts of tips he had seen)...anyway, i'm getting into the details.

it all ended this way:

i calmly said, "alex, you know what we make, but we've never known what gabby makes; you and bruno have refused to tell us. that's fine, but we do not think it's right or fair that you require us to compensate for her salary."

(as a side note, every time one of us has asked, "but isn't she making minimum wage?" they've retorted with something like, "that's none of your business," or, "if i wasn't paying her, she wouldn't be here.")

in a tone like he was about to reveal some huge act of generosity, alex screamed back, "do you know what i pay her?! i pay her $3.50 an hour!!"

i quickly replied, "well, then that's illegal."

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN, ILLEGAL?!"

"unless they're in a serving position, you're required by U.S. law to pay your employees at least minimum wage."

(now, perhaps i should have researched that a little, but i think i'm at least somewhere close to being accurate.)

that's the moment when alex screamed, "take your apron [off] and leave!!!"

"am i fired?"

"yes, you are fired right now!!"

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so, that's it. there are a lot more details--some of which i honestly cannot even remember. it was all such a blur; i truly wish i had a videotape of the whole thing or something. the bottom line is that i called him on something that he knows is wrong, and i believe he got scared. i mean, i really think i saw fear in his eyes. i know for a FACT that one of the hispanic employees there is an illegal alien; all four of them (including gabby) very well may be, actually. the logical thing would NOT have been to fire me--most people would have gone to such-and-such-authority the next day with that information, especially after having been (unjustly) fired. i'm still not sure what to do about all this. the advice i've received has ranged from "you need to take care of business" to "just walk away." i don't know what my response should be. i know i should be socially responsible, but i'm also called to love--above everything else.

one good thing that has come of all this is i can now relate to someone who has been fired. i would have never thought it would feel the way it does--it's such a blow to the pride, it's humiliating, depressing, shocking...

for now, i'm adjusting to life with one job (well, two if you count pampered chef), to being able to actually go home at 5:00. that's a weird feeling. although i only worked at the restaurant for 2 1/2 months, i feel like i worked there a LOT longer than that. my time there was horribly stressful, emotionally distressing (i would even be so bold as to say emotionally abusive--i know it seems harsh, but those two men do NOT know how to treat their employees)...i really am glad to be free of it.

anyone know of any available part-time evening jobs NOT in a restaurant? :)